I've had many bewildered friends/colleagues who simply cannot grasp how we are actually coping despite how difficult things might have seemed.
I chronicle our journey here so that you'll understand why and how.
No, its not because we are very strong. We have broken down many times, and there were occasions where I was in complete denial and wreck.
But it is by the sheer grace of God, and the love for our Little Faith that keeps us going, and to decide logically at every difficult stage - what is best for our little girl.
I know how hard it can be for some of my dear friends when I break the news to you.
Some of you cry and tear, or are just simply too speechless and not sure how to react.
I feel really bad that the news is so heavy for some of you... and I thought, instead of dropping the bomb on you so cruelly, you'd read about our journey for yourself - because then you'd get to journey with us, rejoice with us, and cherish the little moments we have with Little Faith while she is still so present and alive with us today, in my womb haha.
On a side note, we named our baby girl, Little Faith, because she strengthened our faith in God in spite of difficult circumstances. I added a ‘Little’ in front because, well she's little, and to differentiate her from our many lovely friends by the name of Faith, haha. (shout out to all the 大 Faiths out there!)
Lastly, thank you all for the care and love you show to me, David and Little Faith. <3
Dear little Faith. This is big aunty Faith speaking. Hahaha… Forgive us adults for not knowing what to say to mommy and daddy when we heard the news about your medical condition. Sometimes, there’s simply no words to express ourselves. Those emotions spoke a different language, which often leaves us speechless. And you probably had multiple encounters of that language by now, as you receive first hand response from mommy while you bounce comfortably in her womb. Well, that’s the thing with us adults. We think too much, talk too much, love too little, get caught up in many things, and then we lose sight of God. Oh yes, God! You know Him! The One who knit you together in your mommy’ womb. And the One whom the Psalmist David sang praises to, because he was thankful to be “fearfully and wonderfully made” by God. So yes, you know Him, and we all look forward to eventually returning to His embrace. Till then, enjoy your ride in mommy’s womb, bounce around in your little safe haven, and be a fearless angel, for you have no idea how much difference you can make. You may be small, but through you, God teaches us big things. Huge ones in fact, such as unconditional love, mercies that are new everyday, courage, bravery, grace, joy and hope. I look forward to knowing more about you through your daddy and mommy’s blog, so go ahead and have fun but be gentle on mommy’s womb. See ya❣️
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