Delivery is looming closer, planned induce date: early October 2023.

As you know, we have been pondering hard about whether to proceed with Active vs Conservative management for Little Faith when she is born. It is no doubt one of the most difficult decisions I ever have to make in my life. 

I think we have finally both come to a decision. We did it prayerfully. individually in our quiet times - and we both came to the same conclusion - which is to not give up on Little Faith just yet, to give her a fighting chance, and to proceed with Active Management when she is born. 

I suppose coming to this decision didn't happen by coincidence - God spoke to us individually in our quiet times and led us to the same conclusion. 

I'll be honest, this decision was against our initial logic and reasoning. We had always felt that little Faith would not have good Quality Of Life because of her down syndrome and heart condition, and initially wanted to be as conservative in management as we possibly could. 

I thought I would blame God for making me choose a decision that would cause me and my baby prolonged suffering. Instead, I was grateful and at peace that He finally led me to an answer.

David and I had always looked forward to having athletic, bright and intelligent kids of our own. Now we know, that God's plans are far different from ours. 

We don't know what the road ahead is like. We don't know what the end will be like.

But we know that He will walk with us, He will be our guide, and He will provide - one tiny step at a time. 

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you, and the rivers will not overwhelm you. 

When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, and the flame will not burn you. 

- Isaiah 43:2.