Blessings

Our EDD has been brought forward to 8/10. 

The team plans to induce the delivery earlier given the high risk situation, so that facilities are well prepared for Little Faith's arrival. 

This pregnancy journey is coming to an end. It truly has been a tumultuous one but I cannot thank angels around me enough for the many blessings and love poured out on our little family. 

I do want to take sometime to reminisce upon the many blessings in the past months even though there were times I fell into darkness and loneliness from the fear and anxiety I was facing as Little Faith's delivery looms near.

I was in a very bad place as you can see from my entries.

One day, I took out a book to read. It was a book gifted to me from my pastor - about God's tender and fierce love amidst suffering. He thought of me and came to this book as he was browsing through the bookshop.

It was a very powerful book from the very first chapter. And it greatly encouraged me - That we are not forsaken, we do have a God who fiercely loves us through suffering.

I started healing, and accepting her condition, and a lifetime of caring for a special needs child. 

Friends surprised me with a baby shower. They prayed for me, and each one brought gifts of blessing. Some were really expensive but very practical and thoughtful gifts. 

Friends also bought me a maternity photoshoot so that I could have a memento of the beautiful memories of this pregnancy journey while Little Faith is warm and snuggly in me. 

There were many generous donations of baby care items as well. Many things I needed or wanted to buy was quickly gifted, even if I hadn't told anyone of my plans. It's like God knew what I needed and had many angels to see to our needs.

I am also grateful to friends and strangers alike who have made fervent prayers for Little Faith, who reached out to us and visited us in our home to physically pray over Little Faith, who prayed for us at churches, and in their pilgrimage in Israel. Many friends, even distant ones, shared that God reminds them to pray for Little Faith in their daily quiet time. 

A few have also written poems about Little Faith. 

A very respectable Professor and surgeon, who read about my situation, wrote this beautiful poem:

My Precious Little Faith

Oh! Little Faith, my love for you so dear!

Small and delicate, for you my heart endears!

Your hearts beats to the rhythm of mine,

And you are special beyond words can define!

You are the centre of my prayers and supplication, 

My focus of strength and peace beyond comprehension!

- Prof Tan Kok Yang.

In this season, there are many reasons to be angry to God for, but there are also many reasons to be thankful for.