Given Little Faith's relatively subtle features of down syndrome, and my young age, the Down Syndrome specialists was open to performing a genetic test to verify the diagnosis.
It turned out to be positive, correlating with previous tests.
Some people may say that I'm really unlucky - Still relatively young and shouldn't have been at high risk of having a child with Down Syndrome.
Yet it happened.
Maybe, we were specially chosen for this - to be parents of Little Faith.
But, being able to come to this level of acceptance is a miracle in itself.
To be honest, up to the time when genetic tests confirmed her diagnosis, I was still hoping for a miracle - that the antenatal tests were wrong. When she was born, her physical and developmental features were so subtle - she was so bright and interactive - that I had a hope that perhaps there must have been some mistake.
If you know me, I'm a perfectionist at work, sports and life and always aim for excellence by secular standards. To know that my child whom I have great aspirations for has down syndrome - a condition of low IQ and many physical challenges is very hard for me to accept.
I would have thought that I'd breakdown when confirmatory results were out. On the contrary, it gave me closure and peace.
Latest events reminded that none of these happened by coincidence. The fact that I'm relatively young and still got hit anyway - it was a special arrangement.
God wanted me to have a down syndrome baby.
The road ahead will not be easy. But that knowledge has given me the determination to walk on by Faith - not by fear or worries.
And so, I suppose it is time I begin to wholeheartedly embrace this special condition of Little Faith - watching how she grows and holding my breath at every milestone, witnessing God's daily grace upon her - Not by worldly terms but by God's terms alone.
This is gonna be one heck of a ride, a spiritual-led journey of parenthood - one that relies wholeheartedly on God's providence, every step of the way.
